NO MORE ART-for you!
I have finally come to terms with my anxiety. I DO NOT WANT TO BE ASKED ABOUT ART…
Until further notice:
Do not ask me to draw you a picture
Do not ask me to create a logo
Do not ask me to create a flyer
Do not ask me to illustrate a book
Do not ask me for anything that I am not advertising.
If I am going to stop running from my passion, I have to get back to just doing art because I love it. I miss painting, sketching, sculpting! When I am commissioned for a project, however, it makes me (literally) sick. I lie awake worried until my deadline is met. I have been taking on your projects to be nice but it only leads to more anxiety. It got so bad that last weekend was the first time in 2 years that I picked up a pencil for fun! I was looking at my graphite like, what’s the difference between 2H and 4B?!
If you’re a writer and have experienced writer’s block, you know what this feels like. If you are a singer and you stopped singing for 2 years, what would it feel like to hide your talent?
Anxiety is real, and if it were any other thing, I would use art to cope. Alas, no. I have been running from the talent God gave me. I was supposed to grow this talent but instead, I stifled it. I’m kinda mad at myself. I could be this world-renowned whomever running around painting murals for fun. I just need to stopped being asked. That wont happen. So, I need to start saying no.
Not no, because I don’t have time
Not no, because I broke my computer.
Not no, because I don’t know how or don’t remember.
Just no, because NO! I don’t want to!
Stop asking just because you think it’s perfectly reasonable to ask a woman with a BA in Art and Design for her to draw you something. You’re right. I, however, broke up with art years ago. We don’t go together no more. I feel violated and taken for granted. Didn’t even address that part on Facebook. Cause true to form, victim’s guilt got me like : YOU BROUGHT THIS ON Ya’self!
Suffice it to say, I put myself in this freelance mess and I’m going to get myself out. I just need time to fall in love again! Just know, the answer is NO!
(YEAR OF NO!)
Until further notice:
Do not ask me to draw you a picture
Do not ask me to create a logo
Do not ask me to create a flyer
Do not ask me to illustrate a book
Do not ask me for anything that I am not advertising.
If I am going to stop running from my passion, I have to get back to just doing art because I love it. I miss painting, sketching, sculpting! When I am commissioned for a project, however, it makes me (literally) sick. I lie awake worried until my deadline is met. I have been taking on your projects to be nice but it only leads to more anxiety. It got so bad that last weekend was the first time in 2 years that I picked up a pencil for fun! I was looking at my graphite like, what’s the difference between 2H and 4B?!
If you’re a writer and have experienced writer’s block, you know what this feels like. If you are a singer and you stopped singing for 2 years, what would it feel like to hide your talent?
Anxiety is real, and if it were any other thing, I would use art to cope. Alas, no. I have been running from the talent God gave me. I was supposed to grow this talent but instead, I stifled it. I’m kinda mad at myself. I could be this world-renowned whomever running around painting murals for fun. I just need to stopped being asked. That wont happen. So, I need to start saying no.
Not no, because I don’t have time
Not no, because I broke my computer.
Not no, because I don’t know how or don’t remember.
Just no, because NO! I don’t want to!
Stop asking just because you think it’s perfectly reasonable to ask a woman with a BA in Art and Design for her to draw you something. You’re right. I, however, broke up with art years ago. We don’t go together no more. I feel violated and taken for granted. Didn’t even address that part on Facebook. Cause true to form, victim’s guilt got me like : YOU BROUGHT THIS ON Ya’self!
Suffice it to say, I put myself in this freelance mess and I’m going to get myself out. I just need time to fall in love again! Just know, the answer is NO!
(YEAR OF NO!)
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