ALL I NEED IN THIS LIFE OF SIN...
Sometimes you have to take a step back and realize that at this very
moment all your needs are being met. That is what I have concluded, as I
sit at this Starbucks with a peppermint hot chocolate. I ruined my
draft of this, so I guess I must retype.
I find myself constantly taking inventory of the things I need. She has rainboots; I need those. He has a Macbook; I want that. The reality: I have everything that is essential for me to function. So much so that no one knows that I long to dress up for work, wake up at a decent hour, drive to my parking garage, take the elevator to the top, close the door to my office, meditate and start my over-productive day. I want to take a zumba class after work and hop in the shower before I make dinner for my family. I want them to greet me with hugs and kisses and tell me about their day. I want to pray with my children before they go to sleep and make love to my husband until we pass out in our California king bed, with our bodies entwined after saying our I love yous.
As beautiful as the fantasy is, I know where I am and that I am headed there. I have been writing in my thank you journal daily. All my basic needs are met. I have food, shelter, water and love. I have work and transportation, I have friendship and family. There have been goals set to enhance those things but for now I will say: Thank You Lord. Many people are missing at least one of the things I have. It's a trap to worry about the job, the car, the kids, the man. I have to learn to trust God to work all the kinks out. He has NEVER let me down, even when I tested his grace.
For the rest of my life I will make more of an effort to listen to God. I will make time for him. Then, I wont feel so lost about the next move. He will tell me himself.
I don't want to be famous. I want to be powerful. This is the start of my rise to POWER. I feel it now. I wont buckle or be side-tracked this time. Let's get it.
I find myself constantly taking inventory of the things I need. She has rainboots; I need those. He has a Macbook; I want that. The reality: I have everything that is essential for me to function. So much so that no one knows that I long to dress up for work, wake up at a decent hour, drive to my parking garage, take the elevator to the top, close the door to my office, meditate and start my over-productive day. I want to take a zumba class after work and hop in the shower before I make dinner for my family. I want them to greet me with hugs and kisses and tell me about their day. I want to pray with my children before they go to sleep and make love to my husband until we pass out in our California king bed, with our bodies entwined after saying our I love yous.
As beautiful as the fantasy is, I know where I am and that I am headed there. I have been writing in my thank you journal daily. All my basic needs are met. I have food, shelter, water and love. I have work and transportation, I have friendship and family. There have been goals set to enhance those things but for now I will say: Thank You Lord. Many people are missing at least one of the things I have. It's a trap to worry about the job, the car, the kids, the man. I have to learn to trust God to work all the kinks out. He has NEVER let me down, even when I tested his grace.
For the rest of my life I will make more of an effort to listen to God. I will make time for him. Then, I wont feel so lost about the next move. He will tell me himself.
I don't want to be famous. I want to be powerful. This is the start of my rise to POWER. I feel it now. I wont buckle or be side-tracked this time. Let's get it.
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